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you can see, it is snowing now
It was starting to snow as I made my way to the dorm, but I didn’t mind. It felt more like ten years before. I was in remarkable good spirits for a man without love , and I still couldn’t believe what had happened. I played it over in my mind again several times, and wondered inevitably if the days with you were over. It was hard to guess what would happen to you while you were in Beijing seven years ago, but I had already thought about leaving, and maybe even leaving for ever if you wish me to do so. I hadn’t had time to even think of doing something like that images. But you still appealed to me now.
The snow began to collect in drifts and it was a clear, quiet night when I went back to my dorm, and I stood outside for a minute, looking at the sky. It was incredibly beautiful and my face tingled in the cold air, and then suddenly I laughed out and feeling better than I had ten years. And I wish I could have thrown a snowball at someone. I made one round, firm ball of the crisp white snow, just for a hell of it and tossed it at a tree. I made myself feel like a kid again, and I was still smiling when I went upstairs to my dorm.
My heart ache again and I wished you were here with me. I could have give anything to spent a night with you again, and it made my soul ache just thinking that I could never again do that. You would never spend another night with me. I just letting my mind run over. It made me long for you again, but I knew as I lay staring into the ceiling that it was pointless.
I couldn’t keeping doing this to myself and I couldn’t go on piping for you forever, but it was so damn hard not to. I hade been so good for such a long time, and I still wondered that the flaw in me that had allowed me not to see what was happening when I had begun to lose you. Maybe If I had seen it then, I could have stopped it. It was like torturing yourself for a life you had been unable to save. The life I had lost was my own, the victim was you –my love. And I wondered if I could be so sure of yourself in going off. I could imagine ever trusting anyone that much again. In fact, I was sure I couldn’t.
the first snow came, i smiled.
true, innocent giggling came somewhere from within my own body while i got the glace of the pure white sheet, on the floor, in my garden.
what's .......then?
i grubbed a small dollop from the soft candy floss, and heard the bright laughter outside striding over my iron door...
i tasted it, the ivory dust.
it's nothing but joy.
unexpectedly, i knew i can feel joy, i have sense and i can smile.
suddenly, i found i had lost my sense, lost all...sigh~, but ur image.
For how long i could not tell mirth from tears? agony from blessing?
alive death, dead existence.
that's all what i was in.
i called u.
in the voice of sweet smile: "hi, me! it's snowing here^^"
"snowing?!...." u would not say it out. but u know i was joyous now.
and me, too.
had i know i would lost u, i'd prevent it for sure.---it's what i told myself again and again day and night, crinkling in my bed where ur flavor cant be smelt ur warmth cant be fingered.
but i did not prepared, to stop.
cause i knew it, after i'd lost.
i was wailing, and u'r weeping.
only the line heard.
and mum peeked.
it's becoming beautiful memory, u persuaded.
why dont we make it going on and on and on, i do not need memory! i cryed.
i heard a woman sang:
once it ruled my mind at all that u'd always be there
and i always hold on to ur faith.
but everything changes with time
and the answer is not always f~a~i~r~~
and i hope u've gone to a better place
cordell
time would tell
they say it is ur best way
and i hope u've gone to a better place
time would tell time would tell
they say it is ur best way
and i know u've gone to
a better place
cordell cordell cordellcordell............
when babe will cry but ur presents will always remain~
it turns how we used to meant to be
u mean sth more to m
than what many people would say
that u have with the endless dream
cordell
time would tell
they say it is ur best way
and i hope u've gone to a better place
time would tell time would tell
we all will departure again
and we all will return to a better place.....
cordell cordell cordellcordell............
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